I’m back.

Brian is a hard blog act to follow…but figured it was time for me to jump back in the fray. It is amazing to be home and able to spend time with Desmond. Th toughest part of all this is my inability to pick him up. But I’m trying real hard to follow doctor’s orders.

Today I’m pretty worn out. I feel sore and exhausted, but I have a quiet day ahead of me and it’s sunny outside! My marvelous friend, Erin, is here to play nursemaid. I’ll make sure to order her around a lot. And my friend, Victoria, dropped off Mac n cheese and salad last night, so i’ll be well fed today.

It’s brian’s birthday today. He HATES celebrating his birthday so he’s probably secretly happy that my surgery came this week. last year we forgot it entirely since we had a 6 day old baby. But next year he better be prepared for celebrations.

I’ve read all your texts, emails and posts and I truly can not express in words how much it all means to me. Your thoughts and prayers and good vibes are making me feel invincible. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Much love, M

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“Let’s go home.”

Michelle woke up from her morning nap about 30 minutes ago and those were the first words out of her mouth. So, that’s what we’re about to do!

Brian

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Progress this morning

Well, it got a little rough yesterday afternoon, evening and night, but Michelle powered through it with a smile. I’ll go into some detail below, but if you’re the type of person who is prone to a sympathetic response when reading descriptions of body function, then you probably won’t want to read beyond this paragraph. What matters is that Michelle was able to eat a good breakfast, take some oral pain medications instead of intravenously, and is now sleeping quietly beside me. The doctor stopped by this morning to examine Michelle and told us that everything looks great! She remarked on Michelle’s color and alertness. It looks like we’ve turned a corner and should be going home today. There is a one-year-old, a kitten, family, friends and some sunshine waiting anxiously for her return.

Brian

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For those who want more detail, read on. Let’s hope she doesn’t get mad at me for sharing too much, but a lot of her friends want to know what she’s going through, so…

She had some trouble keeping things down–probably due to the pain meds.  Michelle didn’t give up. She just kept trying to eat saltine crackers and drink water. It came back up, but she just ate more. The medical staff switched some things up and she hasn’t had any issues since about 4:00 a.m. She ate and drank this morning without difficulty (other than the fact that it’s hospital food). And, she has now taken oral medication. That’s a big step toward being able to leave.

Michelle also wasn’t able to urinate on her own, which we were told is a common side effect of the anesthesia. She had a lot of discomfort and it was terribly frustrating. The staff performed a bladder scan and started to become concerned that too much fluid was being preserved, so they put an in-and-out catheter in her to relieve things. Apparently and much to everyone’s surprise, I slept through the entire process. I feel a bit guilty for not participating, but I have some kind of condition/gift/problem that allows me to sleep through everything from a crying baby next to my ear to a Love Battery concert (no, I’m not kidding). The cath helped relieve the situation, and then at about 7:00 a.m. she was able to take care of business on her own. She has done so several times since. That was another big step toward being able to leave.

Our surgeon examined her “work” this morning and removed the wrapping from Michelle’s abdomen. That brought much relief to Michelle, who’d complained of the tightness it caused to her chest. The surgeon said the operation went really well. She had to remove a some skin, but not a lot, where the tumor was too close to the surface. She removed the one lymph node that we knew was a problem as well as a couple others that seemed suspicious. She was able to put the portacath in on Michelle’s left side below her collar bone–ideal placement to reduce the annoyance of having something embedded in your skin. The surgeon said we can expect to see a lot of bruising to come to the surface, so we’re prepared for that. Otherwise, the general maintenance involves managing the fluid drainage for the next week or so.

Brian

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Awake

Michelle is awake and doing well. She had some soreness under her arm, but she’s on some good medication to help manage her pain now. She sends her love to everyone and I’m sure will be anxious to do some communication herself once she is a little more alert. We’ll be spending the night here.

If you need to contact me directly, my contact info is on the My Address page of the site, which you can access if you’ve registered. Sorry about the registration requirement, but that’s how we avoid a bunch of spam.

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Surgery done!

Michelle’s surgery went great! She is now in recovery and should be there for something like 45 to 90 minutes depending on how long she feels like sleeping it off.

We weren’t sure whether she would spend the night here at Swedish tonight, but received confirmation that she will. I’ll try to provide more updates as the day goes on.

Brian

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Liftoff (with Yoda)

Just letting everyone know that Michelle is in surgery now. Not surprisingly, she is in very good spirits. Her greatest concern before surgery was whether the doctors and nurses would be hungry since they’ll be operating on her during lunchtime. We talked about the procedure and the loss of a breast during the drive in this morning. I invoked this wisdom of Yoda, which Michelle suggested was blogworthy: “Luminous beings are we. Not his crude matter.”

Michelle appreciates all of the love, strength and hugs you’ve been sending her way. So do I. The surgery will probably last a few hours. I’ll try to update as soon as possible once the surgery is complete.

Brian

 

Update… figured I should probably add the video for the non-geeks out there:

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-rH2PkjBFaU

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Weekend Reflections

I’m sitting here in our new “tree house” looking at the trees and the city and thinking how peaceful our new house is. We had a wonderful, exhausting weekend celebrating the new house and, most important, Desmond’s 1st birthday. Luckily, I have the most amazing friends and family who all pitched in and got the house in perfect condition. We had a great party in the warmth and sunshine and our house was filled with friends and Brian’s family. Daniel and Roger, my long time friends who now live in Portland, spent the night with their gorgeous dog, Stella (who Desmond is obsessed with) and we had a lovely brunch this morning with all my BFFs and their families.

Now I’m finally sitting down to relax and get ready for the big week ahead. Surgery is a mere 38 hours away and I feel like I really have to mentally get prepared for this big step. My friend and “cancer guru”, Andrea, said to remind myself that after Tuesday I could say I’m technically “cancer free”. I like that.

I’m going to Nordstrom tomorrow to get special bras for post-mastectomy. That should be an interesting fitting. I’ll have to treat myself to a new pair of shoes or outfit to help with my therapy.

I’ll keep you all updated on how it goes Tuesday. I’m sure all will be well…especially with all your thoughts and prayers. A big shout-out to my amazing husband who not only worked like a dog to get ready for the party, but is now at the old house cleaning and getting the last load. He’s a saint, seriously.
Love to all…

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What I’m Fighting For…

Desmond video

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Kittens being kittens

My lovely friend, Franni, does some marketing work for a wonderful local animal shelter called Howeward Pet.  She sent me a picture of one of the kittens at their shelter (below).  I think I should get a kitten or two as part of my therapy. Right?

 

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Cupcakes and Wine

Desmond just went to sleep and I am sitting down to enjoy my nightly mini cupcake and glass of red wine.  It’s my ritual to unwind at the end of the day.  I’m feeling a little stretched thin this week.  It’s amazing that us busy people can juggle it all…with our careers, kids, family, friends and home “chores”.  Throw on cancer in the mix and some days I want to raise up the white flag.  But I really do get so much energy from all of you.  And my wine and cupcakes. 🙂

To update on the latest, we met with a plastic surgeon to talk reconstruction after my mastectomy. It’s not something I can do for about a year (due to the chemo and radiation treatments), but it was good to talk options with her.  It’s crazy what they can do to rebuild your boobies!  She will remove a muscle from my back (I’ll still have full range of motion, I just won’t be able to be a competitive swimmer) and attach it to my chest.  Then she’ll insert a “tissue expander”  that will be filled with saline over a few weeks until we have the right size.  whew!  I tell ya, the things I’ve learned in the last 3 weeks.  Anyway, I’m now just going to focus on my upcoming surgery.  One small step at a time.

Okay, I’m signing off now. My love to you all…

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